One in one through one…

I believe in one God, the creator of us all, and upon us his gaze is ever and constant. He knows before I, yet lets me make my own choices as fucked up as they many as ever as the stars.

I choose good and not to harm others just saying…

I might harm myself, not on purpose but through vices that pop up daily and occassionally.

But I look up to Him who made Heaven and Earth and me and you for love, inspiration and devotion. I wont give up ever!

Im leaning back to the Catholic Faith once again. Although I will never say for sure that this is the right religion the rituals enthrall me at a very spiritual level especially in Spanish. I attended a funeral the other day and it was beautiful yet so sad but their devotion to Christ and His love was perfect and unending like his love…

In Jesus

Spiritual journey continued…a surprise!

Well hello to all~ from different religions, cultures, LBGQT+ and anything else that we may be different in.

We are all on a journey and mine is not unique I can finally honestly say yet it is because we were all made different, think different, act different etc.

As my journey continues I felt led to reread some old journals I wrote circa 2005. It was a time in my life I was content with my belief system and it brought me back to realizing that I actually am Catholic in the universal sense.

I have decided to become an activist within the Catholic Church. Not quite sure what this will look like in the future but God has never let me down. Additionally, I forgive the Church for her missteps throughout the years. I have always had deep love and respect for the Church minus the shame, so here I am. Yay go me.

I am still studying alchemy, the healing power of crystals and learning how to be an empowered empath, all while being Catholic. Doesn’t seem like it can get better but God is full of surprises so who knows what amazing things the future holds?

peace, love and joy and light to all

Michelle

The healing power of crystals~

Tonight, I cleansed and activated a quartz formation crystal and used it to clear some negative thought patterns. Amazing results so far.

I discovered crystals a month ago. I have been around them my whole life but didn’t realize their healing powers or recognize their energy to draw from.

I am amazed and as I usually do I am really digging in and getting to know more about them. I took a class last night by Nicholas Pearson and bought his book Crystal Basics available on Amazon. It is a great value for such important and timely information.

Tonight, I cleansed and activated a quartz formation crystal and used it to clear some negative thought patterns. Amazing results so far.

Allow me to explain. For as long as the sun rises since my birth really, I have held onto mistakes or missteps that are negative. I play these scripts through my head every day and there is a lot of them. One involved me giving directions wrongly to a woman 20 years ago. I did still feel bad but have now released it and don’t remember why this bothered me so much.

I am asking for crystals for my birthday. I am 50 and feel like this has been a huge year for me in so many ways. I have again left my childhood faith and embarked on a alchemical and now crystal journey and also discovered this year that I am an empath with mainly people but also animals and all of mother nature.

Thinking about it Al-chemically here is the breakdown of my 50 years of being alive. Wait not ready for that, let’s say that looking at my first year being 50.

Physical- have lost 35 pounds in a year, have some physical limitations, started a strength training workout at home program which kicks my butt and lots of walking and yoga…

Mental- I have a serious mental health disorder, which is under control with medicine and supplements. I have done therapy which I have not found particularly helpful except for my grief therapist for anticipatory grief with my dad. The thought of him dying leaves me numb still but have processed a lot and no longer suffer as much.

Spiritual- left the Catholic church to the shock of many. Began my alchemy studies, embracing the Source of all that is good and discovered crystals for their healing powers.

A good year but many changes. Didn’t mention the pandemic but it has affected me greatly as well but too much to write about.

peace love and joy,

Michelle

Unity of spirit and soul~

This is not for the faint heart. It involves much introspection, looking at the parts of yourself that may not be your favorite. Some of it will change if it is possible, other parts will always be there and we need, I need to embrace them rather than run from them.

First is there a difference?

I’m not here to debate that but I found the answer to this unification of spirit and soul that resonated with me…

We are never perfect, nor will we always be in this state except for maybe some great yogi on top of a hill somewhere. But even he or she may be annoyed by the weather at times or a flea biting their foot.

But the way I understand the unity of soul and spirit is a balanced way of life. Embracing the shadows, after breaking down the salts and loving ourselves and others perfectly where they are.

This is not for the faint heart. It involves much introspection, looking at the parts of yourself that may not be your favorite. Some of it will change if it is possible, other parts will always be there and we need, I need to embrace them rather than run from them.

This unification occurs when one is able to do that I believe.

Kind of like being true to yourself but even more than that, actually loving those parts that are not so pretty.

Breaking down the salts for me has been my faith in the catholic church. Letting go of shame and guilt over matters which are questionable.

More to share on this later but for now recognizing that I still have not done this fully. But I will because I am an excellent student with good follow through.

peace, love and joy to all

Michelle

Positive vibes-

Light abounds freely

In this game called life

No more false pride in earning my way to heaven

Good thoughts

With compassion for all especially me

God is good and never gets tired of our requests of which I am content but do pray for healing of our hearts, minds, bodies and for all the world 🌎

Peace love and joy

Michelle

This powerful force I call God~

I wonder though if a first class relic in my possession is bringing us good health and fortune.

He doesn’t always interfere, He allows me much freedom, all the freedom I want except in various parts of my life.

I cannot begin to describe how I know God exists. He has touched down so many times in my life that I just couldn’t list them all because there have been so many times.

I ran rampant as a teenager and He protected me from so much and still does and I know He always will.

I haven’t had to ask lately what He wants from me. I know and do it happily for the most part.

Mundane tasks, mixed with fun, naps, exercise, good hygiene, deep spiritual talks with certain people, time with my pets and those of others, sleep at a regular time, not to spend money.

I am attracting money right now. I send this out to all who are struggling. Put out in the universe your needs and do all in your power to make good choices and watch it come to fruition.

I wonder though if a first class relic in my possession is bringing us good health and fortune. I was going to give it to a church, but thinking will keep it. It a piece of the bone of St. Philomena, a virgin martyr from the 300’s. Priceless. Powerful. I still believe in the power of Mary and the saints but prefer these days to talk directly to God. He doesn’t answer back but is always guiding me, directing me when I ask and helping out with many things.

This may sound childish, but I still blame God when things go awry, from my shoelace coming untied to my earbuds getting stuck and falling out of my ear. I have been told I am an old soul and an empath. I agree with the empath part but feel so young in my studies of God. To blame God for my day not going perfectly just doesn’t seem to be something that an old soul would do.

Hard to grasp!

I have studied many religions and find them all fascinating but when they get to the part that to practice their religion fully is to deny that other religions may be right, I lose interest. I believe Jesus is the way, but there are many ways that Jesus presents Himself in our lives.

I would like a spiritual mentor. Just fired mine but she doesn’t know it yet. I need more than just being told to inventory negative thoughts.

I release them now quite successfully. More peace, more time to do things seemingly unimportant. But it is all relative I suppose.

peace, love and joy

Michelle