Who is God?

There is no way to know the answer to this question. I know He (a limiting term) exists for many reasons. I know He loves me and wants the best for me and for all. I believe Our God (another limiting term) is beyond our knowledge and that our minds would explode if we realized the full nature or entity that God is while in our mortal bodies.

These are my thoughts tonight on my rest day~

God is good, has a perfect sense of humor and listens to our prayers, answering them in His time not ours.

I try to trust the process and do my best each day to do what I believe what God wants of me. And that is enough, it is more than enough. He gave us brains and with these intricate brains we can begin to fathom the greatness of a loving all knowing all powerful Creator of this world and universe.

It is scientifically unable to prove though. So I understand skeptics as I used to be one. But it was just a brief few years of my life and He called me to Him and I answered the call.

I try to live as if God did exist and think often about what is pleasing to Him. Doing good for others is the best thing. And that starts with our families and then and only then can we try to help others. I used to put church and my religious practices above my duties. no more~

they come first and then i can help beyond my home

I was at a friend’s house helping her out and had just shared with her that I was on the verge of a spiritual breakthrough. I went to use the bathroom and discovered the toilet seat needed fixing. I don’t fix things, can barely change a light bulb. But I managed to fix the toilet.

I came back to my friend and simply stated that my prophecy had come true. This is a true anticlimactic story for some but for me it was a spiritual awakening to be able to fix her toilet. I can do little things for God. I can do big things for God. I can do all things for God. I simply imprint upon the universe and the Source of all that is good my intentions and tonight I imprint to be more of a handywoman.

these are my thoughts tonight.

Blessings to all

peace love and joy

Mood scan~


physical- (worked out 30 minutes and walked 2 miles), feel good tired not fatigued after my evening workout and walk.

mental- I’m good, exercise helps that and supplements

spiritual- a little lost right now. So much for freedom from religion. saying set prayers ritually is a mindless activity, but for someone like me, provides a routine which I miss. Might make up some prayers for every day of the week and that way they will be new and fresh. I can do this right now. Still intrigued by alchemy but today read a derogatory comment that upset me about God. I prayed for this person. It used to be me after all.

Watched a beautiful short video that helped me to avoid judging others. We really don’t know what other’s have been through so should never judge.

More on this on a later blog.

Blessings be to you all in our Lord Jesus Christ, the Source, The Almighty, God, Nature and this humble servant of God. Guess I’m not really humble…ha ha. We shall never know for sure, it’s that circle of life humility is.

peace love and joy

My spiritual journey…

Talking about her spiritual journey along the way…

We all have one; or lack of one I suppose.

My earliest memory of believing in God was when I was five and on my way walking to kindergarten. My shoelace broke and my immediate reaction was to blame God. Now looking back I believe He did break it, in order for me to acknowledge what I had never done, to look up.

I was raised Catholic and when a nun couldn’t tell me she was sure if she was going to heaven, I was like, if she isn’t sure, a holy nun, what hope was there for me?

I left the Catholic Faith when I was 16 and became a proclaimed atheist. It was the most miserable time of my life. I was lost, on drugs and living on the streets of New York, panhandling and making punk friends. Our only mission was the next high.

It ended abruptly when reality set in after a fire that was arson on our squat took the life of a good friend, Carrie, a 14 yr old runaway from New Jersey. I was defeated and came home back to my parents who put me in rehab and was released to a twelve step program.

I was taught to follow rules so when I got to the second step about finding a power greater than yourself, I chose the ocean. Within a few days I was like, some entity created the awesome ocean. And my belief in God has never wavered since.

I got saved at a Calvary Chapel and still believe in the saving power of Jesus to this day. They told me to read my bible, so I did and became Catholic again after 6 years.

I embraced Catholicism for twenty years until a little over a month ago I couldn’t follow their teachings anymore so now I am on my own spiritual journey.

Christ is still at the center of my belief system but expanding to more unified sort of churches. And studying alchemy.

That’s my story and I’m sticking to it!

God bless,


New beginnings…

When one is fifty, one decides to reconsider ones’ many aspects of life…

I just left the Catholic faith.  I am in recovery mode but God is good and I want to blog about my journey.

I believe there is good in all religions but it just isn’t for me anymore.

I am on a sort of alchemical journey, embracing physical, mental and spiritual well being.

Join me on this journey.  share what you may in the comments.

Sometimes I feel lost, but then ask for guidance from Him who make heaven and earth.  and it comes, always.  it isn’t always what I want to hear or do.  But it is sure.  Gentle nudging at times and other times it is sort of a heavy gust of wind leading me.

I see God everywhere.  In nature, in people, in animals.  I thank him for all He has given me.  I am very blessed indeed.

I have my struggles though and even though at times it is very hard, it makes it sweeter when the hard times end and there is always light sent forth.

Lots of downtime lately.

Just be I am hearing tonight.

No music, just the hum of the fridge…

and the dog’s gentle breathing near my side.

As I prepare to close my sabbath, I find myself at peace with the universe and the Source of all that is good and Divine.

Coming soon, my alchemical studies as they progress.

Did my first experiment of sorts, a lavender tincture that takes 6 weeks to dissolve into a tincture.  This will save me money as I use lavender every night on my pillow.  Harvesting it at the next full moon.

I am grateful for many blessings this day.

Peace to all of us!  Let us embrace our differences, learning from one another along the way.  I have so much yet to learn…