Unity of spirit and soul~

This is not for the faint heart. It involves much introspection, looking at the parts of yourself that may not be your favorite. Some of it will change if it is possible, other parts will always be there and we need, I need to embrace them rather than run from them.

First is there a difference?

I’m not here to debate that but I found the answer to this unification of spirit and soul that resonated with me…

We are never perfect, nor will we always be in this state except for maybe some great yogi on top of a hill somewhere. But even he or she may be annoyed by the weather at times or a flea biting their foot.

But the way I understand the unity of soul and spirit is a balanced way of life. Embracing the shadows, after breaking down the salts and loving ourselves and others perfectly where they are.

This is not for the faint heart. It involves much introspection, looking at the parts of yourself that may not be your favorite. Some of it will change if it is possible, other parts will always be there and we need, I need to embrace them rather than run from them.

This unification occurs when one is able to do that I believe.

Kind of like being true to yourself but even more than that, actually loving those parts that are not so pretty.

Breaking down the salts for me has been my faith in the catholic church. Letting go of shame and guilt over matters which are questionable.

More to share on this later but for now recognizing that I still have not done this fully. But I will because I am an excellent student with good follow through.

peace, love and joy to all


Positive vibes-

Light abounds freely

In this game called life

No more false pride in earning my way to heaven

Good thoughts

With compassion for all especially me

God is good and never gets tired of our requests of which I am content but do pray for healing of our hearts, minds, bodies and for all the world 🌎

Peace love and joy


I am…

Positive energy today.

Not letting others bring me down.

Choosing my tomorrow

Keeping my eye on signs from the Source of all that is good.

Peace love and joy

Must relax more but need a lesson in this. I am hot or cold. Productive or not. Black or white. I must start seeing the world as a rainbow 🌈. This is what I choose today!

Equality for all~

I am naive at times but I like it that way because without this naivety I would have no hope for a better world…

Conflict, disillusionment and greed are all parts of my life and I fight to stay above water to not drown in my disgust of mankind of which I am a part of.

Letting go of shame has been huge. But I still fail, still have flawed thoughts and still make mistakes.

God carries through these difficulties and I am ever so grateful are not words enough. But when I am in the middle of an external or internal crisis I forget about God, who gives me my breath of life, whether it is peaceful or full of angst.

I dream of a world where equality not only exists but of a world where it is welcomed by all.

I refuse to brag about my efforts to make this true; but often I realize later how far I missed my mark in my efforts for altruism, which is unachievable when one thinks of it.

But we can’t let that stop our purpose to bring about needed change in this world. Education is key along with honesty and freedom of speech.

Spiritual alignment goes hand in hand with our deeds.

Yesterday, my dad brought up a difficult memory of which I am still processing. I have my regrets but my love shown forth after this incident when I was 16 is just one example of ignorance and I was on drugs. I don’t want to blame drugs alone for my rebellion but it was a major factor.

I rejected God and all that was good and due to the grace of God I found my way back to Him who made all that is good. I wonder now of my missteps…

I feel pretty set in my ways; but yet I am easily influenced by well pretty much everything.

I was a staunch catholic for 20 years, the last 3 trying to break away, although once I knew that God was calling me to leave the church, I took a spiritual retreat from everything to listen for His quiet voice to lead me and away was certain.

At times I feel lost without the safety of religion; but at the same time I feel free to soar in the ocean of spirituality that is so vast in many dimensions of this world and out of this world.

Things are certainly beyond my control but this force that I call the limitless term God is what keeps me going, I used to think it was my dad but now understand it is God. God. God.

My life is good, but yet it is full of difficulties. I have schizophrneia/schizoaffective disorder and have been psychotic many years ago. I will share more about this in another blog but the messages I received from Him during this time were albeit confusing but have come to pass many of them.

I am not a prophet but I know things somehow and often I feel the Holy Spirit speak through me because I know I didn’t come up with something that profound.

I am on an exploration mission. And I pray for an equal world. Unification at its finest. This is my intention I have decided for 2020. Nothing in politics or religion can solve this; no only the Source of all that is good can bring this about.

It’s about breaking down walls that start with me.

Peace, love and joy


New beginnings…

When one is fifty, one decides to reconsider ones’ many aspects of life…

I just left the Catholic faith.  I am in recovery mode but God is good and I want to blog about my journey.

I believe there is good in all religions but it just isn’t for me anymore.

I am on a sort of alchemical journey, embracing physical, mental and spiritual well being.

Join me on this journey.  share what you may in the comments.

Sometimes I feel lost, but then ask for guidance from Him who make heaven and earth.  and it comes, always.  it isn’t always what I want to hear or do.  But it is sure.  Gentle nudging at times and other times it is sort of a heavy gust of wind leading me.

I see God everywhere.  In nature, in people, in animals.  I thank him for all He has given me.  I am very blessed indeed.

I have my struggles though and even though at times it is very hard, it makes it sweeter when the hard times end and there is always light sent forth.

Lots of downtime lately.

Just be I am hearing tonight.

No music, just the hum of the fridge…

and the dog’s gentle breathing near my side.

As I prepare to close my sabbath, I find myself at peace with the universe and the Source of all that is good and Divine.

Coming soon, my alchemical studies as they progress.

Did my first experiment of sorts, a lavender tincture that takes 6 weeks to dissolve into a tincture.  This will save me money as I use lavender every night on my pillow.  Harvesting it at the next full moon.

I am grateful for many blessings this day.

Peace to all of us!  Let us embrace our differences, learning from one another along the way.  I have so much yet to learn…





Just a journal of sorts

This is the excerpt for your very first post.

Since no one has read this blog I have decided to turn it into some sort of a journal of my religious thoughts.

I sin every day and God is faithful and merciful to forgive

Thank you sweet Jesus and Mary without whom we would not have baby Jesus or the Redeemer however you like to think of God.

What else can I say except that I need to try very hard or not at hard at all to remember each day that I am a child of God first and foremost.  After that I am a daughter, wife, mother and friend of few.  Have lost a few good friends along the way…May God bless them!

So with this I will close my first blog on here!

How shall I sign off?

All through the Sacred Heart of Jesus through Jesus and Mary