The healing power of crystals~

Tonight, I cleansed and activated a quartz formation crystal and used it to clear some negative thought patterns. Amazing results so far.

I discovered crystals a month ago. I have been around them my whole life but didn’t realize their healing powers or recognize their energy to draw from.

I am amazed and as I usually do I am really digging in and getting to know more about them. I took a class last night by Nicholas Pearson and bought his book Crystal Basics available on Amazon. It is a great value for such important and timely information.

Tonight, I cleansed and activated a quartz formation crystal and used it to clear some negative thought patterns. Amazing results so far.

Allow me to explain. For as long as the sun rises since my birth really, I have held onto mistakes or missteps that are negative. I play these scripts through my head every day and there is a lot of them. One involved me giving directions wrongly to a woman 20 years ago. I did still feel bad but have now released it and don’t remember why this bothered me so much.

I am asking for crystals for my birthday. I am 50 and feel like this has been a huge year for me in so many ways. I have again left my childhood faith and embarked on a alchemical and now crystal journey and also discovered this year that I am an empath with mainly people but also animals and all of mother nature.

Thinking about it Al-chemically here is the breakdown of my 50 years of being alive. Wait not ready for that, let’s say that looking at my first year being 50.

Physical- have lost 35 pounds in a year, have some physical limitations, started a strength training workout at home program which kicks my butt and lots of walking and yoga…

Mental- I have a serious mental health disorder, which is under control with medicine and supplements. I have done therapy which I have not found particularly helpful except for my grief therapist for anticipatory grief with my dad. The thought of him dying leaves me numb still but have processed a lot and no longer suffer as much.

Spiritual- left the Catholic church to the shock of many. Began my alchemy studies, embracing the Source of all that is good and discovered crystals for their healing powers.

A good year but many changes. Didn’t mention the pandemic but it has affected me greatly as well but too much to write about.

peace love and joy,


Checking my status live~

I still have a moral guide which encompasses kindness, compassion, sympathy, empathy, honesty (this one is still hard for me tho), love and forgiveness.

Cuz its all about me! Just kidding!

But feeling the need to do a alchemic scan right now…

Lots going on internally, not so much externally except that it is really hot and kind of drained…

Physical- hot, lethargic, not much activity today due to the heat, vices prominent but no abuse anymore, finally going to get some help for an old injury of my hip. Wish me well please.

Mental- solid, some grief for my parents dying one day maybe soon, have apt. with anticipatory grief therapist for check in but altogether feeling pretty good about my needs mentally.

Spiritual- wishing well on others instead of karma, feeling connected to the Source of all that is good. Rest day today and taking full advantage of a day of not doing very much. Feeling peace in my heart and soul and happy to be alive. No deep meditation today but it is what it is.

I set my intention this month for positive energy only and it’s working. I find myself much more at peace and full of joy and love for all.

The people who have hurt me verdantly or inadvertently need healing so I’m gonna pray hard for those who enjoy it being their job to make others miserable as they are. I find humor in this as it no longer affects me as much.

I started wearing a black tourmaline pendant and ever since clearing it with rock salt water for 24 hours been feeling like it really protects me from all the negativity in the world and my life. Ahh, the power of crystals I am finding very interesting.

Did my harvesting of lavender tincture last night… it’s more subtle smell than I like but others will enjoy it. Going to make the next batch with vodka and let it sit longer. This is my first alchemical experiment! Exciting.

God is love; I am love too.

God is holy; I am holy too.

God is humble; I am humbled by my many missteps

I think this mantra, “I am good, I am holy, I am humbled”. when I am feeling less than due to my time as a catholic and the learned shame for so much, I find myself repeating this mantra. I still have a moral guide which encompasses kindness, compassion, sympathy, empathy, honesty (this one is still hard for me tho), love and forgiveness.

I still hold onto a lot of negative experiences and am looking for ways to release these thoughts from my being. My mentor suggested that I inventory them. Sounds good?

Noooooo, to write down all my mistakes? Maybe need a new mentor as I don’t find that helpful to put it in pen or computer.

Anybody have any suggestions?

peace, love and joy


Physical, mental and spiritual connections-

Starting to remember my life applying these 3 stages and having fun!

5 – age when I played with red ants and didn’t get bitten then became afraid when people warned me. They were my friends. Physical aspect of this age.

Mental at this age was the anguish I went through over a little girl who threatened to sue me over taking her swing. I was so scared and intimidated!

Spiritual aspect, this was the age I was when I blamed God for breaking my shoelace. First recognition of the Divine.

I am doing this with every important moment of my life.

Peace love and joy to all

Alchemy visited~

I am not called to great things, yet I aspire much, not for material things but inner peace that cannot be moved….

currently in the blackening stage, the breaking down of my salts which are beliefs I have held my whole life that I am now ready to let go of. Making a list of things I want to change about myself and been working so much on myself these past years that the only thing that I could come up with is my negative self talk.

I am what I am and my beliefs are personal and we all know what we know yet may learn from one another about different things. I am not the worst sinner to live as I once thought. Sure I miss the mark at times, but hold my head high believing in the saving Grace of God.

I am not special, yet I am unique

I am not called to great things, yet I aspire much, not for material things but inner peace that cannot be moved….

It’s a simple life I choose today.

peace, love and joy on this path, led by the light that will never go out…

thank you for joining me for a bit.

Breaking down the salts…

How can we break down the salts in our life? How can we know what to call God? this blog explores these topics on one bloggers spiritual journey away from shame

Morro Bay, California

In my alchemist studies, I am learning about breaking down the salts. Just as it is a natural process for rock to break down into sand over many many years, so it is that in my life I have come to realize that there are many salts in my life I want to break down. And there is no rushing it…

For example, my lavender tincture is breaking down material to become something I can use. Right now it just looks like a clump of something energetic.

One of the things I did with this tincture is put a tiny piece of paper in of something that I want to release. I chose shame… I already feel a shift away from guilt over my missing the mark in big and small ways.

I am a child of God, nothing more in terms of spiritual states. My son thinks using the word God is limiting and I agree. But to me it also means so much. Just as the picture above of one of my favorite places on earth is of a massive rock, I think of the power of God as limitless, all knowing, all present.

I am not always in the spiritual world though. But frequent it quite often. I have come to realize that death is just a separation of our physical state but that after we die, we begin to become what we were meant to be at long last for some, others it is briefer.

I look forward to being with God one day. I tend to prefer the word Source of all that is good. But for now I will use my limiting term according to my son and call the Source God. Easier and works for me…

Redefining my days, starting today. More writing, meditating, gardening and studying Alchemy.

Breaking down the salt of shame is the first step to love myself more the way God intends. And in loving myself more, I know I must take care of myself, my family, my friends, my gardens, my life!

Still looking up to Him who created such a wonderful world.

So lastly, in this blog I would like to think about how the ocean has negative ions yet brings so much positivity. Negative energy will do this. I am not sure how but am interested in what others think about this.

I am an empath and there has been much negative energy around me lately. Getting the house fixed up and lots of workers with different history’s. It is causing me to really work hard to find balance between physical, mental and spiritual.

Peace, love and joy to all of you!


New beginnings…

When one is fifty, one decides to reconsider ones’ many aspects of life…

I just left the Catholic faith.  I am in recovery mode but God is good and I want to blog about my journey.

I believe there is good in all religions but it just isn’t for me anymore.

I am on a sort of alchemical journey, embracing physical, mental and spiritual well being.

Join me on this journey.  share what you may in the comments.

Sometimes I feel lost, but then ask for guidance from Him who make heaven and earth.  and it comes, always.  it isn’t always what I want to hear or do.  But it is sure.  Gentle nudging at times and other times it is sort of a heavy gust of wind leading me.

I see God everywhere.  In nature, in people, in animals.  I thank him for all He has given me.  I am very blessed indeed.

I have my struggles though and even though at times it is very hard, it makes it sweeter when the hard times end and there is always light sent forth.

Lots of downtime lately.

Just be I am hearing tonight.

No music, just the hum of the fridge…

and the dog’s gentle breathing near my side.

As I prepare to close my sabbath, I find myself at peace with the universe and the Source of all that is good and Divine.

Coming soon, my alchemical studies as they progress.

Did my first experiment of sorts, a lavender tincture that takes 6 weeks to dissolve into a tincture.  This will save me money as I use lavender every night on my pillow.  Harvesting it at the next full moon.

I am grateful for many blessings this day.

Peace to all of us!  Let us embrace our differences, learning from one another along the way.  I have so much yet to learn…