This powerful force I call God~

I wonder though if a first class relic in my possession is bringing us good health and fortune.

He doesn’t always interfere, He allows me much freedom, all the freedom I want except in various parts of my life.

I cannot begin to describe how I know God exists. He has touched down so many times in my life that I just couldn’t list them all because there have been so many times.

I ran rampant as a teenager and He protected me from so much and still does and I know He always will.

I haven’t had to ask lately what He wants from me. I know and do it happily for the most part.

Mundane tasks, mixed with fun, naps, exercise, good hygiene, deep spiritual talks with certain people, time with my pets and those of others, sleep at a regular time, not to spend money.

I am attracting money right now. I send this out to all who are struggling. Put out in the universe your needs and do all in your power to make good choices and watch it come to fruition.

I wonder though if a first class relic in my possession is bringing us good health and fortune. I was going to give it to a church, but thinking will keep it. It a piece of the bone of St. Philomena, a virgin martyr from the 300’s. Priceless. Powerful. I still believe in the power of Mary and the saints but prefer these days to talk directly to God. He doesn’t answer back but is always guiding me, directing me when I ask and helping out with many things.

This may sound childish, but I still blame God when things go awry, from my shoelace coming untied to my earbuds getting stuck and falling out of my ear. I have been told I am an old soul and an empath. I agree with the empath part but feel so young in my studies of God. To blame God for my day not going perfectly just doesn’t seem to be something that an old soul would do.

Hard to grasp!

I have studied many religions and find them all fascinating but when they get to the part that to practice their religion fully is to deny that other religions may be right, I lose interest. I believe Jesus is the way, but there are many ways that Jesus presents Himself in our lives.

I would like a spiritual mentor. Just fired mine but she doesn’t know it yet. I need more than just being told to inventory negative thoughts.

I release them now quite successfully. More peace, more time to do things seemingly unimportant. But it is all relative I suppose.

peace, love and joy


Musings of the night…

I want to occupy my thoughts on God and His wonderful plan for me and my family, friends and heck the whole world to those who are ready to receive His many blessings.

I put things out there and if they are meant to be they surface.

I seem to attract money, which is cool, but we used to be poor so it is hard to spend money these days. I have need of nothing except grandchildren and a jacuzzi. Don’t know if I will get either.

Life is not about money though.

Been doing really well with releasing negative thoughts. Everytime they arise I just think, I am releasing and now they are gone before they occupy any space in my head.

I want to occupy my thoughts on God and His wonderful plan for me and my family, friends and heck the whole world to those who are ready to receive His many blessings.

I don’t believe in luck, nor coincidence; although it is tempting to relinquish these thoughts I hold of it all being about God and His plan for all who are good.

peace, love an joy


The meaning of life…

I dream of the day when I can enter the spiritual world easier. It’s always there though. As I live and breathe, God is closer than my every breath. He is in me; He is in all of us…

Life has many meanings but for me the meaning of life is connecting with God, the Source of all that is good.

This can be done in multiple ways I have discovered.

It can occur in the quiet of my evenings, or any time of the day. It is a deep sigh of gladness and quiet reflection on the Giver of life.

On the properties of God which I can’t begin to understand or explain.

Unending, unfathomable, unmoving, omnipotent, omnipresent. And who am I but a mere mortal trying to relay a tiny bit of the appreciation I have for God and the life He has given us all.

Here I set my intention for the month of September- positive energy, no complaining, only good vibes this month and every month because that is what I choose for my life. Negativity will be avoided and as situations arise, I will look to God for solutions that are practical and trustworthy.

Reaching God isn’t always easy to do but for me it is like a muscle that grows each time I touch in with Him. Sometimes it takes effort that I don’t always have, sometimes it is through a kind deed on my part or the offering from someone else, perhaps a story that reflects the love of God or nature finds. Also in my animals God has chosen to continue to breathe life.

So much to ponder!

I dream of the day when I can enter the spiritual world easier. It’s always there though. As I live and breathe, God is closer than my every breath. He is in me; He is in all of us…

I consider the perfect position of our planet. Any closer to the sun and we’d all be fried chicken, any further we’d be frozen entrees. Perfection in creation, even if it seems like it is all falling apart.

There is a plan I believe, not that we were made by accident but by design. Any architect attests to the importance of a plan at every stage. I consider my garden and my blooming Echinacea purpurea. Slow, gentle unfolding of a beautiful flower. It’s taking all week to bloom, still green but opening all the same. Strong healthy leaves to support the many blooms upcoming.

I dream that I can reach God somehow, not a ladder but an entry point where I think of nothing else, but so many distractions to getting lost in God- my phone, the dishes, the endless paperwork etc… but trying to turn every moment of my day into a spiritual experience would be difficult for even the most advanced spiritual practioner.

And it would be tiring.

Quite often when I am on the higher plane, God causes me to crash back down. I remember being in heaven (figuratively) in Italy in 2015 at a pilgrimage at San Giovanni Rotondo, the home place of the in corrupt body of Padre Pio. I was soaring in the spiritual realm, being near his body in prayer for hours. Will share full experience in another blog as it deserves it. But after, when I was floating away it felt, a taxi cab driver ripped us off and I was scared because I didn’t know if we would ever get back to our apartment. Things like this happen all the time.

Anyone have any suggestions for how to come back to the earth we abide in without such shock?

peace love and joy


What is life?

Each day we each wake up with the same 24 hours- to do or not to do many things. What did you accomplish today that you are proud of?

Life is interesting for sure. We can be spectators or we can be a part of things; it is our choice. But what is the essence of life?

Alive, free to stumble or soar…

vida in spanish. la vida

Very important the life we have each and every one of us on this planet and beyond…

Life is precious because the Source of all life wishes it so.

Each day we each wake up with the same 24 hours- to do or not to do many things. What did you accomplish today that you are proud of?

I am proud of my day and am ending it on a good note.

Quiet meditation, relaxing music, candles, prayers, positive thoughts surround me tonight.

I am at peace.

I am no longer strangled by the limits of religion.

I am set free to soar and I feel like I am flying.

I’m not even high.

I appreciate life so much because I have not always wanted to live; in fact I was suicidal when a teen and even recently due to a mental health disorder and addiction issues mixed with marital stress, job stress, money stress. And now it has all gone away.

We think or at least I do, that one phase of my life will last forever, but it never does. It is good right now and I’ll take this breather from dramas that often afflict me. all is well, everything is sound.

Don’t know if this blog is of interest to anybody else but it is cathartic to me to write and share all I find on the way, but that would be way too many blogs to write every way I see and feel God. We relax in the heart of God, because it is safe there, even when the rest of the world is at odds.

So life for me is everything and I hope I live a long time because I have much to do but the day He calls me home I will be happy too~ to finally meet this wonderful Creator of heaven and earth…

Peace, love and joy,

Write anytime


p.s. I hugged a tree today, a really big tree! Lives embracing…

Who is God?

There is no way to know the answer to this question. I know He (a limiting term) exists for many reasons. I know He loves me and wants the best for me and for all. I believe Our God (another limiting term) is beyond our knowledge and that our minds would explode if we realized the full nature or entity that God is while in our mortal bodies.

These are my thoughts tonight on my rest day~

God is good, has a perfect sense of humor and listens to our prayers, answering them in His time not ours.

I try to trust the process and do my best each day to do what I believe what God wants of me. And that is enough, it is more than enough. He gave us brains and with these intricate brains we can begin to fathom the greatness of a loving all knowing all powerful Creator of this world and universe.

It is scientifically unable to prove though. So I understand skeptics as I used to be one. But it was just a brief few years of my life and He called me to Him and I answered the call.

I try to live as if God did exist and think often about what is pleasing to Him. Doing good for others is the best thing. And that starts with our families and then and only then can we try to help others. I used to put church and my religious practices above my duties. no more~

they come first and then i can help beyond my home

I was at a friend’s house helping her out and had just shared with her that I was on the verge of a spiritual breakthrough. I went to use the bathroom and discovered the toilet seat needed fixing. I don’t fix things, can barely change a light bulb. But I managed to fix the toilet.

I came back to my friend and simply stated that my prophecy had come true. This is a true anticlimactic story for some but for me it was a spiritual awakening to be able to fix her toilet. I can do little things for God. I can do big things for God. I can do all things for God. I simply imprint upon the universe and the Source of all that is good my intentions and tonight I imprint to be more of a handywoman.

these are my thoughts tonight.

Blessings to all

peace love and joy

Breaking down the salts…

How can we break down the salts in our life? How can we know what to call God? this blog explores these topics on one bloggers spiritual journey away from shame

Morro Bay, California

In my alchemist studies, I am learning about breaking down the salts. Just as it is a natural process for rock to break down into sand over many many years, so it is that in my life I have come to realize that there are many salts in my life I want to break down. And there is no rushing it…

For example, my lavender tincture is breaking down material to become something I can use. Right now it just looks like a clump of something energetic.

One of the things I did with this tincture is put a tiny piece of paper in of something that I want to release. I chose shame… I already feel a shift away from guilt over my missing the mark in big and small ways.

I am a child of God, nothing more in terms of spiritual states. My son thinks using the word God is limiting and I agree. But to me it also means so much. Just as the picture above of one of my favorite places on earth is of a massive rock, I think of the power of God as limitless, all knowing, all present.

I am not always in the spiritual world though. But frequent it quite often. I have come to realize that death is just a separation of our physical state but that after we die, we begin to become what we were meant to be at long last for some, others it is briefer.

I look forward to being with God one day. I tend to prefer the word Source of all that is good. But for now I will use my limiting term according to my son and call the Source God. Easier and works for me…

Redefining my days, starting today. More writing, meditating, gardening and studying Alchemy.

Breaking down the salt of shame is the first step to love myself more the way God intends. And in loving myself more, I know I must take care of myself, my family, my friends, my gardens, my life!

Still looking up to Him who created such a wonderful world.

So lastly, in this blog I would like to think about how the ocean has negative ions yet brings so much positivity. Negative energy will do this. I am not sure how but am interested in what others think about this.

I am an empath and there has been much negative energy around me lately. Getting the house fixed up and lots of workers with different history’s. It is causing me to really work hard to find balance between physical, mental and spiritual.

Peace, love and joy to all of you!